RE-construction... Long-term project

 This Sunday we are going to try to sabbath.  My day will be a bit busy with church and taking mary to school and bike riding with mihika and whatever is going on in the afternoon.  But it should be pretty relaxed.  We will also say goodbye to Elijah after a surprise visit this weekend, which has been awesome.  So much fun to have around.  I see now why Susie has missed him so much.  He makes things so much more exciting and interesting.   My hope on Sunday is to observe the Daily Office, at least a form of it.  I think I'll read some Psalms, some gospel, some epistles, and maybe some prophets.  That will be a good way to stay focused on God.  And I'll jounal about the readings too.  I hope the weather will be nice.  

 I haven't entered a new post on this blog for over a month and a half, but this stream was the reason why I started this blog in the first place.   I have gone through a transformation of my faith moving from head to heart. It helped that I shared my doubts with Matt.  It also helped to participate in silence and meditation at the retreat.   I also have been praying regularly, twice a week.  And I have decided that I would try to trust God that Jesus is enough when I have desire for Susie but I choose to fast from pursuing my desires.   I am noticing now that I am feeling more whole and healed.  And since I'm feeling better in those ways I'm leaning less on my need for God.  I want to resist this and continue to draw close to God.   Prayer:  Again, God, show me that Jesus is enough.  In whatever my circumstances, Jesus is enough.  Thank you.  Glory to you God.  Amen.